And if tonight my soul may find her peace
in sleep, and sink in good oblivion,
and in the morning wake like a new-opened flower
then I have been dipped again in God, and new-created.
~ D.H. LAWRENCE
A good laugh and a long sleep are the best cures in the doctor’s book.
~ IRISH PROVERB
My Dad went home from hospital today. He is recovering well from the surgery. He will recuperate for the next six weeks.
It is a relief that so far all is well.
The amount of tension between my parents and I is negligible right now. Between that and my husband’s business suddenly picking up I have felt the need to sleep. A lot.
Those of you who experience bouts of anxiety and depression as I do will know that sleep is in short supply at such times. I wouldn’t be exaggerating to say that I haven’t slept well for the past two years.
There are lots of differing opinions about how much sleep we actually need but there does seem to be agreement that when we don’t get enough we borrow from the sleep bank and at some stage that loan needs to be paid back.
If that is in fact, the case, then I will probably be asleep for the next twenty years. So yeah, see you at my 60th birthday party….
Most people when coming out of a bad bout of depression begin to experience the things that have plagued them less and less. Things like panic attacks, digestive and skin disorders, crying, an overblown sense of melancholy, disappear much more quietly than they came.
However, the last thing to come back to normal is sleep. When the arcadian rhythms are disrupted it seems to take an awful long time to realign them.
Don’t think that you don’t sleep during depression, because you do. But it is a heavy, ponderous slumber that is broken and leaves you feeling unrefreshed. What I am experiencing now is a deep, refreshing sleep that leaves me feeling as if I have been given a tonic overnight. I am no longer waking up in the morning with dark, negative thoughts in my head and an intangible feeling of dread.
It feels as if there is an end to something, something I am glad to say goodbye to. For the moment the worries and the strains have been pushed to the background and at long last I am able to sleep.
It’s a great day in the morning.